My Baby Is Four Years Old Today!!!

My daughter--my baby (as in my last child)--is four years old today!

Now we've been counting down to her birthday for a while now--and I was fine with it--until yesterday.  Yesterday it hit me.  When it was less than 24 hours until she was 4--it hit me that she would no longer be 3.  Silly I know--of course she won't be three. 

Ah but alas--this mother thing is complicated.   You rejoice with every milestone--but it's a little sad too.  It's so bittersweet.  Motherhood is the only job I know where you work your butt off to put yourself out of a job!!!

I'm all sentimental today.  I'm looking at pictures and even reading her a few of the letters I wrote to her when I was pregnant with her and she was a baby.   She was a little distracted by the computer--but I didn't let a little thing like that stop me!!!

Now I'm not quite the mess that I was when she turned one!  I cried and cried when she turned one.  (and was no longer officially a baby)  Their first birthday is VERY traumatic for me--LOL.  It was similar when my son turned one--but not quite as bad because I knew that I wanted another child. 

This sadness has taken me quite by surprise today.  I am very happy that she is 4 now.  She will probably be able to go to Voluntary Pre-K over the summer.  (or at least in the fall!)  I can't wait for her to go to school!  She's like my little shadow--and I just need a break!   

Plus she loves school.  Sunday School--and while my husband is working on his GED--she has a class to go to.  SHE LOVES IT and can't wait to go to school. 

Now--her first day--it might hit me again.  And maybe I'll be a little sad.  I wasn't too sad when Joshua went to school--as I had just brought my daughter home from the hospital the day before!!!  (he started Pre-K two days after his third birthday)

I didn't even get too sentimental on the day that he started kindergarten.  (like I thought I would)  No--what hit me was when he started first grade.  (for some reason go figure--LOL )

By the way--my default picture today is of course my daughter when she was a baby.  (at Mommy and me)  As I will change it soon.  (her brother's birthday is in two days!!)  I am putting it in this entry as well.



Isn't she cute?  (yes I know I'm biased--LOL --but that's one of the privileges of being a mother!!!)

She's a little sweetheart--my daughter.  I wish that all of you could know her. 

much love,
Christine