My Boys

Wow where to start??First and formost its not easy being a single mom.But as hard as it may have been the ups and downs I would never change a thing. When you have kids you do your best to teach them right from wrong.And hope along the way they have listened even though at times they could of found better things to do than listen to one of moms speels.

 My gold has always been to make sure they turned out better than I did.That they surpass me in their accomplishments.Although I knew Ray would without a second thought he would do so.I was worried his brother would give me a run for my money.He is hard headed and stubbern.Nothing like me...lol... And has always had problems controling himself.Just when I thought it couldnt get any worse....boom it did.We all took it hard when his brother left for the Navy but he took it the hatrdest.Even though he would rather pull his teeth out than admit he was missing his brother.He was getting in trouble in school and I dont mean just detentions and those things he was suspened so many times I lost count.No matter what we did to try and help him to figure out what was going on the more he pushed away.And all the while of course I blamed myself.Thinking I must of done something wrong.

  Well its a new year and we changed his school to be in a better envirement hopeing it would help and we started therapy.And then all of the sudden his additude changed he was happier even lost wieght.Hes talking to his brother now and hes soooo looking forward to our trip to VA for xmas to be with his brother.

Damian has never been one to share his feelings but little by little hes starting to and hes just doing so much better in every area.Im so proud.hes gone for just about straight F's to as of now has only 1 D.Which will change once he turns in some extra work.That in itslef is crazy Damian do extra work.Hell he didnt want to do class or homework before.Now hes busting his ass and getting it done.

 Ray omg what can I say.Hes only been in the Navy one year and hes already an e4.He was moved on the ship to work on the bridge with the captian and the officers.They are just no words.Hes doing it.Hes done it and this is just the start.Hes making more money than alot of people I know and hes only 19.Way to go Ray!! Of course he has asshole to deal with there but I told him ignore them they are just jealous.They are below him and older and cant stand it.But at the same time they dont want to do what needs to be done to more up.

 Ray has always been an old soul.But man how he has changed sence being there.Hes a man.My god a man.A good man.And he will always have good things come to him.We dont get to talk much only when they go in port.And everytime he sounds more and more grown.So responsable.They are no words to discribe how I feel.Its unbelievable that at 15 when I was pregnat I had to hear shes too young that child is not gonna get what it needs.How can she raise a child when she's one herself.Well all I can say is HA!!!! My son couldnt of come out any better if I was married or a older.and what is thier excuse for there kids being drunks or on drugs and just plans troulbe makers. Just because your older doent mean you know it all or better.I may not have finished high school I may have gotten pregnat at 15 but my god I did 2 things right....MY BOYS!!!! And no one can say otherwise.I am so proud of both of them .And I can feel good about knowing when Im no longer here they will be just fine.

Mommy loves you and I'm  so very proud!!!!